Story of my life

I seem to have this running dialogue with God.
I always try. Try to be good. Try to be good enough.
But then I fall, and I ask God, “Why? Why can’t I be good enough?
I want to be good enough. I want to be good enough… for my friends, for my family, for You.”
But I always fall. I can never keep being good. I always fail. And I look to you and your Word, and it tells me that I can’t be good enough, and that I have to rely on you. That being good is a gift for you to give. But it just confuses me. When I look to the other people, they seem to be telling me, “you have to be good enough, you have to do the right thing”. And I try.
And I fall. And I ask God, “Why can’t I be good enough?”.