So close

Hmm,it's almost finals week.Yippee.That means finsihing my final project,writing papers,and of course final exams.Now is when I will pay for all my slacking.It will be atoned for with many hours of work.
I liked Thanksgiving.I had a good time at home,resting and not doing homework.Now that it's over however,it feels really weird,it's almost Christmas break,and that means that my first semester of college is almost over.It feels kind of good.A three week break is going to feel really strange though,I'm really going to miss all my friends from college.

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Escape

I am completely inundated by escapist pursuits.I listen to my music as an escape from my own emotions by replacing them with a simulation of someone elses.I read books about things that either other people did and I am partaking in their accomplishment in my mind,or about people who never lived and never did the things that they did.I watch movies that are exactly the same way.What is all this,am I defined by the entertainment I consume?Why do I feel like I need the crutch of other people's emotional outpourings?Why does it matter if I'm contented when I use these crutches?

now

I'm so happy!Today is a good day for some reason,I feel so free!I love Thursdays,I have no classes except for a workshop at 3:20.I get to do whatever I want today...well,and homework.
I'm going home next week for Thanksgiving break.That's pretty exciting,I've only been home twice before.
My first semester of college is almost over.It's so crazy,I really don't want it to end.I have been having so much fun,and I'm going to miss my college friends.

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I took an exam today in one of my classes.The exam was on a book that,until last night ,I had not even looked at.I was quite nervous as to the difficulty which I would have with it,but I found out it was really easy.So,that sort of made my day.
Yesterday was my birthday,so that was rather exciting.My 19th birthday.It was pretty normal Tuesday,with guitar lessons and guitar ensemble.I also went to a friends general student recital and a session with the speaker from chapel yesterday morning.Later last night I was getting kind of depressed because my birthday was almost over and I hadn't really done anything special for it,but then a couple of my friends found me.They had baked me a cake and made me a card,so that really brightened my evening.I was quite happy*smiles*.

It's my birthday

Hey,today is my 19th birthday!Yippee!Woo Hoo!PARTY TIME!

Wisconsin

The trip to Wisconsin was a blast,we all were like family.We stayed up late lying on the trampoline looking at the stars and watching movies.We ran around the woods,and all kinds of great stuff.I loved it.
Tonight was a speech dinner for the speech team.I had forgot that it was tonight,so I got a call from one of the people from at the student center.It took me by complete surprise.It was a fun time.We went to this restaurant called Paninos,which is named after a type of specialty sandwich they serve there.It was so filling,I am stuffed.
Decisiveness is the goal of the week.

Food

Food is the cause of much evil in this world.I am finding it very hard to be unhappy and angst-ridden with this full stomach of mine,even though I try.Food is obviously the cause of the general apathy of the American public about most everything...well,I guess it doesn't really cover the many people with strongly held,ignorant opinions out there,but that doesn't bother me too much.The apathy has set in.I had so much for supper,someone could dump a bucket of feces on my head,and I wouldn't mind.The food has neutralized me.I am a zombie slave.Mmm,feces.

is it a door or is it a window

It feels like the weekend right now.Maybe it's because yesterday felt so much like a Friday with all the work I had due.Whatever it is,it is a very relaxing feeling.
This weekend I'm going to a friends house in Wisconsin with a whole bunch of people,and it is going to be a major party!It is going to totally rock,I am really looking forward to it.
School is going fairly well,my speech class just ended yesterday and that was my busiest class so I am going to be a little more relaxed the rest of the semester in the school work department.
Well...I need to go do some laundry.

Antithetical

Hmm,I don't like not know how to handle a situation;and when that situation directly involves my emotions,it really bothers me.When it comes right down to it I like to be safe,I don't like taking risks.I really want to take the risks,but I do not like to take them,and I have found myself in one such position again.What am I going to do?I really have not decided yet.Here's to hope.

constant

My mind will not stay where I want it to.It keeps on running off into random corners of my intellectual world,hiding until I find it again...What am I talking about?What kinda crap am I blathering?I need to get some sleep.I think I'm going crazy...or maybe I'm just going next door and playing Halo.You can believe whatever you choose.
I went to the last Northwestern Eagles football game today.Sadly,we lost 10-14.It was fun anyways though,and the weather was absolutely beautiful today.Two friends and I walked to Caribou tonight around eleven-fifteen,only to find that it had closed at ten.That was kind of discouraging,because I was really craving a mocha.We did get some doughnuts at a grocery store though.Speaking of fatty,high-carbohydrate food, I watched Super Size Me this afternoon.That was a really good movie.It made me never want to eat at fast-food restaurant again if I can help it.Not that I actually will not go to them,I'll just understand what I'm doing to myself by going there better.
Song of the...uhh,past few minutes: The Beatles' "Eleanor Rigby"

Roarin' Orange

Tonight my Freshmen Seminar group met together in our leaders home for one last hurrah,a party of way totally cool proportions.I miss Roaring Orange!Those were good times,we all don't spend enough time together anymore.I'm going to have to make sure I keep in touch with them.That sounds strange since we all go to the same school,and there are only like eighteen-hundred people here,so it seems like it would be a lot easier than it is.They are a great group of people,and I would not have chosen a different orientation group for the world.It makes me sad to think that the formal bond that held us all together has been for the most part dissolvedk,but even that still gives me hope.It gives me hope that next year,another group of incoming freshmen will come under the banner of Howie the Roarin' Orange,and bear it with pride.That they will all enjoy themselves as much as I did;make as many good friends.That is what has made the whole thing so special,the friends I have made through this.I love 'em.They are some of the coolest people I have met here,and I would not trade their friendships for anything.
Roarin' Orange,I love you guys.

Power to the people

Last night after I posted Paul and I went to Goodwill.I bought four books there...that is one of the reasons I am glad that I don't know where there is a used book store around here,I'd buy way too many books.I love books.Books are good.
Anyways,I think I need to spend more time doing my homework.I never have it done when I want it to be,mainly because I never do it before the night before it is due.

Hey,guess what?


Isn't that kind of creepy?And you all thought you knew me.*smiles under moustache*

I had another speech meet Saturday.Definitely another learning experience.There is also a rather interesting story to accompany it.The guy who was supposed to be our driver and one girls duo partner did not show up at seven like he was supposed to.We waited fourty-five minutes and decided that we had better leave or we would be super late to our rounds.So we continue to try and call him all morning and no one answers his phone.I had developed a theory that he had ran off the night before to Mexico with a waitress from Don Pablos and become a drug dealer there.It turned out that he had slept in till 2:30.That was a relief,some of the girls had decided that he had died in a fiery car crash for some reason*shrug*.
On a seperate note,I am utterly confused in the area of romantic relationships at this moment.It is not that I actually have one,it's that I think I want one,but I'm not sure...so I don't.But I want one.I think.
I'm going to Goodwill now.