right now

what's happening?i feel confused.i thought this was over.i thought i was in control.why am i so angry?so down.so out of it.i thought i had found the best answer for the situation,but there is no answer.if there was an answer,i wouldn't be able to choose it.maybe i'm tired,and i'll feel different in the morning.maybe this is the only time i'm thinking clearly.maybe i'll just live my life taking the easiest decisions to my choices.maybe i'll grow a backbone,and with it will appear some discernment.maybe i should shut up.yeah,i should probably shut up.